It has been forever since my last post. Over the past few months, Matt and I have been settling into the routine of both working full time. In September, God called Matt to lead our small group, which has been a huge blessing. Through it all, we've been trying to take each week, each day, at a time. But without fail, life gets overwhelming.
During these overwhelming times, I start to strive. I strive for time, for happiness, for fulfillment. I take it upon myself to fix my situations. I think that I can control the things around me and work hard enough to get through the stressful times. I prioritize my time - and God always falls at the end of my list. I think there are more pressing matters in life - God can wait.
But ultimately, this striving leads me into despair. It stresses me out more knowing that I am trying, and failing, to meet all my needs & desires, and all Matt's needs & desires.
"Cease striving and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth." - Psalm 46:10
God has simple, yet powerful advice for me. Cease striving. Know that I am God. My taking the world upon my shoulders doesn't exalt God - it disrespects God. It says that I can take on this world better than He can.
It's so comforting to know a God who loves me so deeply and cares about every detail of my life. Why strive for things when God has already perfectly ordained every situation I will face? So I'll look to these words.
Cease striving. Know that I am God.
