When I graduated early last year, the thought never occurred to me that I would never really have a senior year. I was just thrilled to move on with my life, get married, start making a living for myself. But what I'm learning now is that I missed out. I took for granted my last year as an undergrad.
Yes, I'm going back to college in the fall for my Masters, but it won't really be the same. I was blessed with such an amazing friend group in college. But I never really had good closure to end that chapter of my life. Since I was moving to Raleigh for work and Matthew's school, I never thought I needed any closure. I was right around the corner from all of my best friends.
However, this year has proven it to be very hard to keep up my once so tight friendships. I can't believe how different your life changes when you finally get that diploma. It's crazy! One minute I have all the world at my feet --free as a bird-- and the next I'm paying bills and creating a schedule based on my work life.
But all this to say, I'm incredibly blessed to have had the opportunity to "crash" the Cru Women's beach retreat this past weekend. I got to see all my best friends and spend a lot of quality time with them. I got to see growth in their relationships with the Lord that I never got to see thus far. It was bittersweet in that I loved hearing about their lives now, but that I've missed out on so many memories being without them this year.
God has a divine calling on Matt's and my's life just as He does on all His children. My college career may have been cut short but it was cut short for a reason. Looking back I wouldn't change a thing. But seriously, I don't think I would.
&& going to the beach this weekend further assured me that I'm in a different chapter of life. And I need to finally whole-heartedly embrace it :) Not hanging on where I can't anymore, but truly cherishing the memories. And oh did I make some good final ones this past weekend...